Tired…Energyless…Stressed from Pawnship in Others’ Relentlessly Repeating Self-conquests

“Emergency Power Off”, photographed by Richard Masoner (25 July 2007) & edited (approved by Creative Commons Generic 2.0 terms) by Z.E. Imaginaréis (6 May 2022).

Low in energy despite being well-fed,

drank an energy drink & coffee,

yet still feel the last hanging-thread.

Tearing apart at the seams from refusing to allow tears,

a lifetime of instruction towards desensitizing from what was near.

Don’t want pity from any body or thing,

nor a pity party celebrating a looming upswing.

My true desire is to graze, not devour;

to be able to clear-up the nose when detecting a scent…“sour?

Eyes burnt so long, gazing through ashy lenses,

light fogging up, refracting the senses.

Attempting to renew long-damaged feelings,

the magnitude of shock causes fleeing, reeling.

Ink transmitting energy, with every swift stroke.

Preventing 80% from crumbling under this long-worn stress-cloak.

Breathing, sipping, pushing (not tapping!), sliding (not stroking!), undressing instead of layer-cloaking.

Happiness in the present, joy in the future.

Smiling with every breath, lifting One’s spirit along a draft of surrounding breezes.

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College student seeking sustainable self-employment that enables me to simultaneously express my hobby of writing!

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